i have not come to update for a long time, espicially during the "O" levels. ahh! i miss my blog!!! :] it looks so dead now, i shall try to revive it. :] my promise to my blog. :]
okies, so what have i been doing the past few months. let me try to recall. i guess i can say i am happier now,though it is not totally.
on the day before the literature exams, some idiots went to steal renuka's and mine literature notes. we went to the void deck to study as usual, then renuka and me want to go and photocopy something, so we left our notes at the void deck. we went to the sunshine plaza, photocopy what we wanted, then went around the place doing some shopping. =.= when we came back to the place, all our notes were gone, only the files were there. even renuka's pens were put inside my pencil case and zipped up nicely. i was so shocked, and i didnt know why, but i started laughing. =.= it was so hilarious, i mean, i came back, expecting my stuff to be still there, and all the papers were gone, only left the files. renuka wanted to call the police. =.= those gang of people, i gonna screw their necks up their ass some day, trust me, i have plenty of time after the "O"s. :]
i need to go off, update some other day. :]

my car!!!!! :)

check out my bike :)

i went out to study today. :] i do not want to say more, i let the pictures tell. =3

i met sarah today at the Expo. :)then at one thirty, she brought me for the church service. pretty cool. live music and all. there were people jumping up and down to the music, but most of them just clapped their hands along and some were singing along too. then the pastor talked, he talked about health,and he gave a few examples of the miracles that happened in their belief in god,and i always thought that pastors are boring people who gave boring speeches, he certainly has a good sense of humor:) and there were lots of praying too. i just stood and watched though. anyway the church is really different from what i had imagined. XP. and all because i watched too much tv. there were chairs, not benches, and the place is really huge. o.0. i was really amazed. sarah introduced me to some of her friends as well, she called them their family members. well, she introduced a guy to me, and i was like *jaw drop* at him.XP. wait, before any misunderstanding occurs, my jaw dropped is because he really looked like someone else and i was like "such a coincidence?!" X) and sarah thought i was shy?! and that guy, he probably thought i had something for him. =.='' and i do not even want to think about it now. XP interesting huh, it was a pretty cool lesson that i learnt, not that i want to turn christian now, but i learnt something from this trip. now i am all tired out. :)
i am starting to get crazy over riddles though. X) riddles are fun.
i want to go vivocity again! i know things are expensive there but =3, it is so fun to go there, especially when there is a direct bus back home. X)
i want to bite that guy who aimed his camera phone at me. Dx
me is starting to love you. i know it. let this be a silent one, and fade away.
wo-bu-xu-yao-wan-mei,xin-zhong-you-ai,zi-ran-shi-wan-mei.
meimei is love.you can go away now, get out of my life and i do not even want to see you ever again!! :)

i have not been updating as frequently as i had hoped to do. =X
thursday: today was not what i thought to be a sunny day. the sky was cloudy, and it started to rain during physics lesson. a pretty heavy downpour at first but then it slowly turned to a slight drizzle. since there is south pole and north pole, our classroom is the east pole, it was totally freezing. even one jacket was not enough for me today. i stayed pretty awake for physics today, which was not very often. i nearly fell asleep though. anyway, we had two hours of literature today. we talked about an incident that had happened in school recently. apparently some guy had decided to shout that a particular teacher sucks within her hearing range, and unfortunately for that boy, she is the discipline mistress, yes, no need to guess, she is mdm tang. from what i heard, she then confronted the student. needless to say, the boy was suspended and had to publicly apologise to her. it was a pretty audacious[i am not sure of which word, but what i am trying to mean is that his actions are...] ahh, scratch that, it was a pretty bold attempt at rebelling against the authority in school. i do not condemn his actions, but i do not stand with him though. i applaud his bravery, but scoff at his rash actions as well. =X if he had use the courage to do something wiser, i think he can achieve very far. okay, but that is not the climate of today. additional mathematics mock paper 2 was the highlight of the day, XP, because after that paper meant the resolution of the day. i mean, school ended with the mock paper, although we had to stay back to finish up our work, but i really switched off after the maths test. i am so tired, see, school should not torture students or they will have a rebellion. i will be the one sitting in a corner and holding a signboard that is going to say "students should have our rights, we pay for our education anyway" XP.
wednesday: i do not have much to say just that...I FINALLY BOUGHT THE RED DOLL!!! :] i will put up its pictures later. =3 i love them! they are so adorable. i am deciding on their name now.
shinku rocks!

today is National day!! :) whoots! happy birthday singapore XP not that i am very patriotic but at least i still get a holiday. i tried to make brownies today~ argh~ and the top part was burnt and it was not cooked properly inside. i guess i just do not have the talent to cook. i feel like a genius today~ XP
i love basketballcafe~
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come join now~ ^^
yesterday was the national day celebration and we were supposed to go home at 9++am, but we had speech day, only the sec4s and sec5s have to attend. i really want to go back to the lower secondary years~ then i had to stay back for maths remedial, the remedial ended at around 4pm.
the red doll is gone *sob*

signing off~byes :)

monday: it is the new week of school again. *groans* i still have so much work to do. i should not have played the whole day yesterday, but it is too late to regret now. XP i bought so much choccies yesterday, actually just two ^^"", m&m and cadbury chocolates. =3 *yummy!* vicky did not come to school today, she was not feeling very well. =X school was pretty normal today, nothing exciting happened anyway.
it is so hard to face up to who you really are. i am not sorry for showing you attitude. you deserve it.
byes~

saturday : finally it is the weekends. :) i am so glad that i can finally take a break. ferrero rocher are my favourite chocolates now :] but it is so expensive. *sighs*
kira still owns me a box of ferrero choccies. :]
one day of fun, i am so tired now. =3 my parents are out tonight. *evil grin* i hope i can go shopping tomorrow. i have lots of things that i want to buy.
i was thinking of forming an interest group but i do not know where to start. =X and i also do not know who to ask first.
i want watch jay chou movie!!! :] jay chou fan! i love his songs.
setting up an interest group, who's interested? :)

this is the doll that i bought. =3 then after that, i decorate it.XP

this is the BEFORE picture.

Before

After

nice? XP

friday : school officially started with physics lessons. i listened quite attentively for the first few minutes, then he started to bore me, and i start finding myself drifting in and out dreamland. there was physics test today, i did not study and so, i could not do practically the whole paper. =X .that's a shame. then for english lesson, we did english oral preparation mindmap. nothing much. recess. then it was chemistry lesson, i failed my chemistry test. T_T then it was maths lesson. what more can i say about the lesson? XP i was freezing in the classroom today, because i had forgotten to bring my jacket.
physics remedial after school, we did practical. it went pretty smoothly, i guess i could use more practice though. :]
then after remedial, vicky and me went to lot 1 to slack abit. hey, it is friday today, i deserve a rest, nobody should object, i have my human rights. XP anyway, i saw this very cute doll and i could not resist it. it was looking at me with such cute eyes that keeps echoing in my head "buy me, buy me, bring me home" XP
so i bought it. :] i bought the blue one, i am definitely going to buy the red one. they must come in a pair. =3
since i did not update yesterday, thursday, i guess i could try to recall. =3
thursday: we had around 5 hours of maths yesterday, plus my tuition teacher wants to have tuition with me yesterday, that is like one hours and thirty minutes more, then he came late. the tuition was supposed to start at 8.30pm, he came at 9pm instead and so it ended 30 minutes later. after that, i was already half-dead. i had told my dad that i feel like giving the tuition teacher a good beating, and even my dad encouraged me. he had said, "go ahead, i'll be the witness". XP
if i am gone away from your life, please continue to live well. :)
i still want you to know that i care.
right, i guess that is all. :]

haven't you realised where we are going
or was it that you do not dare see
it was just yesterday while i sat beside you
listening to you talk about dreams and love
and today you sat in front of me
told me about broken promises
told me that the world was not what i dreamt to be
and there was no us, wasn't any me and you
and made me left in tears
rollling down my eyes and into my heart
you just never know how much hope you put into me
and you just took them out again
you are like an angel
who show me the way to heaven
yet you are a devil
one who push me straight to hell
leaving me with no place to run
leaving me to drown in your sweet pain

wednesday: today was very tiring. i fell asleep during the first lesson. it wasn't my fault, i tried hard to stay awake by fidgeting around, but i still fell asleep. yes, our teachers sing fantastic lullaby. there was one teacher who outbeat the rest. the moment he came in, i would already feel like sleeping, and when he starts talking, i would already been snoring on my table XP and that is our dear physics teacher.
anyway,during mother tongue, our chinese teacher came in and started complaining how cold our classroom was. i would not care much for her complaints [ she always has something to say/complain] until she put her cold hands onto my face. i literally jump. hey, i wasn't expecting that. =.="
yup,yay,i am going to watch a movie!!!! :] i know exams are going to be here, but students need rest too, therefore my actions are justifiable, parents and teachers should not complain. :] i miss the popcorn.
we had a mini picnic in class today, i brought swiss roll[chocolate flavoured] =3, vicky brought 1.5litres of root beer and a big bag of ruffles barbeque flavour potato chips. =3 yum yum. *starting to drool again* sally bought potato chips as well, original flavour and blueberry bread. blueberry is <3>
i am looking forward to next week. holidays!! :]
you know what? nobaody asked for your stupid comment , next time, why don't you just keep quiet? do not speak when nobody wants to speak to you. you ALWAYS spoil the mood.
whoots~feeling so high now. XP long time never high until like that. :] oh dear, it was probably the drink i had just now XP it was probably spiked.[hmmph,make me so high for what?]
whoots~whoots~whoots~
humpty-dumpty sat on a wall~
humpty-dumpty had a great fall~
and i forgot~ XP
a reminder to myself: somebody's birthday is coming up! =3 time to a get a present. what shall i get? yay, i get to eat cakes again. O.o or maybe i should just make a cake personally myself? nah, the oven will explode.
whoots~an august baby~ XP but too bad still got many more days. :[
maybe i should dress up as an ouran character and surprise the person, the thing is he is not gay, but heck, ouran hosts are to make people happy, regardless of who. =3
byes~runs off~ :]

tuesday : what happened again today? hmm...i cannot remember. i just remembered i wrote alot of essays today. +_+ . *concussion* one english essay and one literature essay. been feeling extremely hungry nowadays, i had a sudden craving for chocolates now, and i miss Macdonald's. =X our class won the racial harmony competition which requires students to dress up in different traditional costumes, everybody in our class wore a traditional costume. :) prize is a ferrero rocher. shouldn 't we be given a more not-so-cheapo stuff? XP
assembly was quite entertaining today. we had a dance, poem recital, and a small skit put up by three teachers which was quite hilarious and the last program was a singing show put up by miss herina and a guy whom i do not know his name, but he drew quite a lot of cheers from the students, i thought he sang pretty good too. the song they sang was a chinese song called " dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui" or direct translation would be "who would you think of when you are lonely".
i had enough of your selfishness. i know people have flaws. it is so easy to criticise others yet we never know how to examine ourselves first. i am not perfect, and i shall not demand you to be perfect.
things have changed so much that i no longer see you the same way, half of me wanted to be nicer to you and half of me just want to erase you from my life forever, have you asked yourself why is this so?
to kira, hey, i own you one, thanks! :) having you around is like having an elder sister around, thanks for being there always. =3i treat you after "O"s.

i want watch jay chou's movie!!!! :)

i must work hard
i must work hard
i must work hard
i must work hard
i must work hard

*looks at youtube*

i must work hard
i must work hard

*watching youtube*

i must work hard
i must... XP

monday: start of school, about one more month to prelims. *dies*
hmm, i went out just now, just came back. XP it was pretty hilarious actually, i thought i would style my hair up a LITTLE. just a LITTLE, nothing drastic, and i went into this Cheer's shop,and this guy actually said : thank you sir". =.="
i nearly burst out. okok. not funny to know that i can look like a guy. XP
should have put my picture here next time.
right, i am supposed to write a few literature essays today, they are due tomorrow and of course not to mention the amount of maths homework we have. @_@ i should take medical leave from school tomorrow, but there are about five days of holidays next week, it's singapore's birthday! XP
nothing exciting happened today, nothing that is worth recording. :( or was it that my observation skills were lousy?
just fell in love with an anime recently, but too bad i do not have enough time to watch it, i am still stuck at episode 8. *sighs*
oh well, i shall stop here until i remember what i wanted to say. =x

sunday : nothing is happening. >_<
my posts are getting cut off. =X , leaving only half the post. heck.
what should i do now? *thinking of pranks*

you were everything
just everything I had
it hurts alot when you went away, but i am slowing getting on, and one day when you turned back, things are going to be different.
you were everything
and someone I’d die for
[quoted from the lyrics from the song by john-hoon]

=.=" i am bored.
life is taken granted by the living and treasured by the dead.
i guess i would not have any tuition today, the tutor has not called to say when he is coming. :) i hope he does not come today, i deserve a break too.
all the things you do, even it is insignificant, all the kindness you show, people can tell and it can make a difference.

second post :]
Love is something that makes you keep a person in your heart, when you are happy, you wish to share your joy with. when you are sad, you think of their faces and it cheers you up, knowing that somewhere in their hearts, you have a place where you can find shelter in. in the past, i used to hate william shakespeare and his plays. i remembered him as the man enjoys killing his characters and writing tragic plays, which i came to conclude in Romeo and Juliet and Macbeth. probably it's because i hated the fact that he brought death in so easily, and the fact that i am always believing in happy endings made me start to refuse reading his play, but of course i am studying a Shakespeare's text for "O"s, fortunately, it is like a romantic comedy >_>to xxx : i seem to let you down recently, but should i apologise? you have let me down so many times that i always wonder why should i be bother with people like you when there are better poeple out there? i do not hate you, i just feel sad for you, at the fact that you always hurt others intentionally. it does not do both parties good, because in the end, the agressor ends up being hurt much more than the victim. i do not expect you to apologise, it will just make me more tired, rationale is this : why do it in the first place when you think what you are doing is wrong and afterwards say a sorry? sorry is not the word that should be used here, you make people think that you are an irresponsible person who thinks that you are trying to get away just by apologising. apology is for unintentional mistakes, and not for intentional mistakes. people are weird, when they thought that somebody is dependent on them, they started taking that person for granted and started manipulating them, but people do not stay weak forever, they grow stronger, until they are able to break free from the control and search for their own space and freedom. there are times i thought i was going to walk down the path that you take, but i am not going to. i would not be like you, you are still a friend and when you need help, you know where to get it, but you have to ask more nicely this time, and not in the tone that i am your servant, i do not own you anything and therefore, i do not see a reason why you should treat me or any other people this way and do not carry the misconception that i am heavily dependent on you, if you choose to go away, i am not going to stop you.

my first serious post.
let's recall some recent events that had happened, i think my blog post is going to be very very long >_
*thinks* hmm, shall i start with what happened today? i think i should.today: i went to school for oral practise today. before that, i had to go to meet Rukia to return her yukata. she had sent me a sms reminding me to 'come out of my house". XP i walked to the mrt station and gave her the yukata, then we chatted for a while, she recommended me to watch an anime, told me to get started on my costume if i wanted to cosplay this year or there would not be enough time to prepare, but 'O's are still the priority this year. she told me that she ordered a Bleach musical from overseas and it costs around hundred plus dollars, including shipping costs of course.+_+ my first reaction when i heard the price was "you got to be kidding! that's daylight robbery!" but of course, i was too polite to really make that exclamation out, but my facial expression, i think my jaw really dropped at that moment she told me the price. XP then i met up with vicky at the mrt station to go to school for the oral practise. we went straight to our classroom, our so-called haven in the school, where we were mostly in during schooltime anyway, partly because vicky left her oral book in the classroom as well, but i just like to exagerrate things. XP at that point, we were already not so keen to see the teachers for our oral, we kept discussing which teachers we should avoid seeing,[yes,we are very particular about the teachers we see], mainly because the teachers freak us out most of the time. consequence of our fussiness: we end up practising by ourselves, we tested each other and gave ideas on what to say, it is pretty good, because i get to hear a different view to the picture and conversation which i think i can add into when i go for the oral next week[yup, we are really really going to meet the teachers next week]. it was drizzling slightly when we walked to the mrt station again. the skies looked so gray, casting on the ground, giant shadows of the tall buildings, making everywhere seems so dark, and making me feel so sleepy. XP now i am at home and nothing is happening. life is like stagnant water at home, it does not breed mosquitoes but it breeds something else called laziness. :]
yesterday: yesterday was a friday, it was also our school's annual spots day. i met up with renuka first[[her parents so nicely gave me a lift to the stadium as well,thanks :)], then met up with sally, mubin[that was coincidental meeting,we happened to see him there], then ain, vanisha, komala[i hope i got the name spelled correct >_<], nanthini[i hope it is spelled correctly as well, if not, i am really so sorry that i suck at name-spelling].Macdonald was not opened even though they claimed to apen for 24 hours on fridays and weekends and public holidays' eve. we ended up eating roti pratas at the shop located just beside the Macdonalds. i ate three pratas, pratically stuffed them into my mouths as we were already late for the sports' day. yellow house were seated at the extreme left of the stadium. this was my last year ateending the sports' day, but i never really watched the young blooming runners, especially the lower secondary students whose talents are still raw and untrained, which is a stark contrast to the upper secondary students who probably started training some time before them. nevertheless, i think all the runners who partcipated in this event are winners, for having the courage to join in the first place. i was actually reading a book during that day, but i did ocassionally looked up from my book to observe the runners. some students actually brought a dustbin and two sticks and started making a din, which i thought it was highly uncomfortable to the ears and irritating, and the students who made the din actually belonged to yellow house which would mean that i was receiving the full blast of it. it was really a pity when it started raining heavily in the midst of everything, the scene was really beautiful at that time, which cannot be described with words and pictures, you have to see it for yourself. the event was cut short and they went on straight to announce the results. yellow was the last again. >_<>

this is my new blog :)